Monday, March 8, 2010

The Normal State of Things

Quitting is for losers. And I'm not a loser. Get it?? Attempt number 4 in a couple of days. This is getting old but I'm not giving up. I want to be a loser. A loser who doesnt smoke. I appreciate all the comments of support. They do keep me motivated. Thank you.

Now about the mood of the day. I got nothing for ya. I dont feel anything. I'm still distracted as shit but pluggin along. I was put on probation at work on Friday. This sums up how bad its been really. I havent been producing like they know I can so it was well deserved. I have a month to turn it around. And quite honestly they gave me stupid easy numbers to hit. They dont want to fire me but they get that I need a push. I've told them a couple of times I'm having trouble focusing. They heard me and responded the only way they could. Give me goals. Goals with a pink slip and white box with all my shit in it attached to it if I should fail. Bring it on.

8 comments:

Linnnn said...

Ok then. Probation is a bitch. But square up your shoulders, take a big breath and kick some ass Peedee - style! Swing for the bleachers.

meleah rebeccah said...

Quitting smoking is the HARDEST thing to do IN THE WORLD!!! Im proud of you just for TRYING!

Ann T. said...

Dear peedee,
I must have written a second comment on the last post Just as you were writing this one.

You have a great attitude toward this new adversity. You see everything. As a former manager, I can tell you this is a huge relief to whoever is holding this up. It sounds to me like they really Do want you to succeed.

Not to mention everybody here that wants you to,

Take care of yourself, take heart,
Ann T.

peedee said...

I got this. No worries. On both issues. ;)

Bloviating Zeppelin said...

I must be exceedingly thick; but what is it that you do at your work?

And, of course, quitting smoking is one of the top TWO toughest things to do in the entire WORLD.

BZ

Sisu said...

Not to leave you lurch like...babies a poppin' all over (why do people get to have sex when I don't?? This is not computing!) but sorry about the troubles. I'm with you on you got this; we tough chicks are tenacious. BTW, have you ever tried the Nicorette coupled with LOTS of Guitar Hero? Seemed to make the nights go better for a friend of mine! :)

peedee said...

I'm a recruiter. aka: Headhunter. I specifically steal Emergency Room Docs from one ER and get them to work at another ER.

peedee said...

And I'm taking all suggestions Sisu! Guess nicorette and guitar hero are the next attempt. lol